i find it hotter and hotter to think about thick, long, girthy black dicks to the point i got on grindr and started to look for hot men in my area. no surprise, men seriously suck. I kinda hope I meet someone that just wants to do some vanilla sex with no strings and no psychopathy attached. the idea of a chonky black dick that I just go to slob on, put a condom on and sit on just gets me drooling, but I'm starting to feel guilty that it would be dehumanising to the person, like somehow im supposed to talk to them and give them the impression of control. and dehumanising for me as well, but the thing is that I'm low-key repelled by men, I find myself attracted by mainly their huge dicks, although get my mood easily killed by their smell, voices, appearances for the most. I prefer women still, cis or trans whatever, and yet I keep fantasising about that fat huge black dick sliding into me, caged and shaved and moaning with a dick in my ass. do you think I shouldn't miss out on men? is it considered cool to be desider only to stuff a hole for a few minutes and then fuck off entirely and not being a creep? idk maybe I'm just dreaming. is it awful to just desire a human that just appears when I need stuffing and goes away when I'm in boymode?