Well, to start, hello, how are you? I am angry with myself, sad, embarrassed with my decisions and above all the state that defines how I feel, with a strong depression.

To give a little context about myself, I am a man (virgin, I clarify in case anyone is interested in knowing) of 20 years (yes quite young) and I have been in this fetish, or I play as I like to call it, for about 4 years.

I started simply because masturbation and anal exploration generated a lot of pleasure for me, that led me to discover the "dildo heroes", a kind of JOI content where they explain how to masturbate anal...

As time went by, I delved deeper into this world of anal masturbation until I reached the content that definitely gives me more pleasure today and my most severe episodes of depression, the "sissys".

As I discovered more about anal pleasure, chastity cages and the pleasure of wearing women's underwear I ended up reaching 2 places that I don't know whether to call racist or simply I was and am at a very weak point in my emotional stability. to endure it. the first is "hypnotube" and the second is "twitter, specifically the BNWO part."

If today I have to describe these two pages with words, they would be "toxic" and "harmful" for mental health.

I repeat that I am in an episode of my life where being okay with myself is not even close to the word I would use, and probably many people think differently about this.

This brings me to the point of my post, am I angry? Yes, a lot and more than anything because I know that continuing on this path is consuming me and I am too aware that I should leave it but at the same time I am too immersed in addiction and pleasure to do so.