Does anyone have strategies or stories of how a man trained you to eat your own cum when you are with him? I want to smash my PNC to pieces and I feel like this, as uncomfortable as it may be, will be one of the best ways to accomplish it. I've gotten comfortable with my attraction and submission to men but cumming is a form of struggle (but so much better than earlier in my journey).

I view it as one of the last hurdles to clear for my own happiness. I want to be able to cum and still accept my desires and needs. If I were to be honest to myself, servicing my daddy is so easy, natural, and fun before I've cum, but I realize I have strong non-sexual feelings and connections for him even after I do cum on the infrequent times it happens. Cuddling is great after cumming. I still like his scent. The feeling of being safe with him never changes no matter if I'm horny or coming down or if it's before I'm horny. I feel vulnerable and happy to be in my lingerie or whatever state of undress I was in during sex afterwards. I am happy to receive his gentle, non-sexual kisses after PNC.

I'm almost there in fully loving myself and self-acceptance.

I want to express what he means to me and that maybe it all started chained to my libido but that now I have a deep desire for it to be more than that.

I fantasize of being happy and content of blowing him to completion after I've cum on his cock, or him telling me to rub my clit until I explode on his chest before I lick it all up during our normal foreplay and continue to have wonderful sex.

I want to once and forever destroy the societal walls that prevent me from the sexual freedom I've worked so hard to achieve yet feels so elusive.