For background, I’ve been a sissy for years and have had lots of satisfying encounters with men, along with a few that weren’t so satisfying. Also, I only get an opportunity to fully dress and play a few times of year (long story). For me, getting fully dolled up (waxed/shaved smooth, make up, clothes, wig) is a big process that takes a couple hours. So my preference is to have a regular ongoing guy I can count on, and set a date a few days ahead.

Well, twice now this one guy who I’d seen a few times and kinda hit it off with has stood me up after saying he was 100% sure he would be there. He said it was work, extra shift. Whatever, he couldn’t make it. So, I’m so desperate for cock, and desperate to not waste my rare opportunity, I start looking on Grindr and FetLife. So many guys hit me up on Grindr and it ends up going nowhere - They’re too far away, they have nothing on their profile, they send shit like “wyd,” or they want to crossdress with me and suck my dick which I’m not into. Is it so fucking hard to write a little on your profile, post a pic, and use full sentences when messaging me?? Plus, I try to vet these guys a little with some questions to see if we’re on the same page. What are you into? Do you smoke? Are you okay with wearing a condom? Sometimes I say, “tell me a little more about you and what you’re looking for.” So many write back, “what do you wanna know?” You can’t even explain a little about who you are and a few preferences?? Every now and then some guy seems promising, we have a good chat and make a plan to meet (I prefer to host). So then I start to get ready. Nearly all of them flake!! Tonight there were probably 4-5 guys who seemed very interested. One guy ghosted after saying he was gonna start getting ready. Another said he couldn’t drive. One went silent for a while and then piped up again after I finally gave up and jerked off. Also in this small city/town, it seems a lot of the men are married so they can’t play at night or on weekends, but I think they like to flirt through the app with no intention of really meeting.

Ugh. I really needed some dick tonight. I needed some real man to come fuck me like a whore. Struck out.

They missed out too, I looked so hot.