I'm not sure if this is weird, but I don't think I'm really into sex with dominant men that much. I would LOVE for them to abuse me and take advantage of me in a consensual non consent way, and use me for sex. But my enjoyment of it comes from being used and pleasing a man, rather than enjoying the feeling of sex itself.

I posted some personals and I feel like a lot of men want me to be like a porn star and go crazy with wanting to having sex with them. And then get mad at me that I'm "not like" what I posted looking for.

But I only enjoy it when I'm saying "no" to a perverted man who forces his pervertedness on me. I'm genuinely not crazy about sex, but find it hot when I say "no" and a man is able to manipulate me into using me.

I haven't really met up with a man in person as a sissy, but I've chatted online, and I guess most of them don't really understand this part of my sexuality even though I feel like I'm pretty up front.

I'm not really sure what to expect from posting this but I guess I just wanted to vent. I totally get that dominant men want different things from submissives, and I don't mind it if we don't click, because we can just move on. But some shitty men just make me feel bad about it after I had some bad experiences :(