Hi everyone,

Been wrestling with this for years now and I think I'm ready to take the plunge. Not sure how to word all of this so I'm just going to type as thoughts come to mind.

I'm 33yo living in seattle and the last couple of years I have been bouncing back and forth from my weight lifting straight male persona and my make-up wearing lingerie loving persona. For as long as I can remember I have always been back and forth in-between the two, and on occasion I'll get dressed up and feel sexy. That leads to wanting to be with men, which I do enjoy. I have hooked up with a few guys in the past, however l, recently I have been feeling like I want to pursue that full time.

I'm small framed and with a little bit of work in the gym, I feel like I can get my body exactly how I want to feel incredibly sexy with female clothes on. I'm experimenting more with wigs and makeup and when done properly I can come off as pretty passable. When I look at myself in the mirror fully dressed I can help but giggle with happiness at how much I like the way I look.

Idk, I guess what I'm trying to articulate is that the feeling to do this full time is really on my mind, and if anyone has any advice on how to move forward and be more comfortable with my true self, I'd love to chat. I have alot of friends and only a small handful actually know of my desire to be a full time cross dressing sissy.

I'm at the point now that I'm willing to do things in my life that will encourage me to enjoy this side of me more - dressing up more, getting more into makeup, making body changes in the gym, and having a healthier eating style.

I guess that's it for now, always down to chat and hear other people's stories about how they became more of a sissy.