So I've been into submissive, gay, femboy, sissy, etc. stuff for over a year now, and i think I'm at a place where i want to give it up, don't get me wrong, crossdressing is super fun, and i DO think sucking a cock would be the hottest thing ever, i DO think getting fucked would be the most pleasureable experience of my life, i even had my first prostate orgasms in the last couple weeks, but as i developed more as a person, my sissy fantasies started clashing with the idea, and ideologies of the person i actually want to be, one hand, getting fucked, used, and manhandled by a group of bigger men sounds really hot, but on the OTHER hand, i want to lose my virginity to someone i love, i want to be intimate with people i love, and that want of ACTUAL companionship is much stronger than my want of wanting to be a cockhungry slut, what's even stronger than that though is my addiction to sissy porn, I've been rubbing my clitty to it for such a long time, I'd admittedly feel a little empty after leaving it behind, indulging in those thoughts has been really pleasurable, but I have higher ambitions, bigger expectation for myself, than to spend multiple hours a day rubbing myself to videos of femboys etc. I want to be the best version of myself, i don't think the best version of myself has time for this time of stuff anymore. But still, the thought of being someone's boy wife creeps up on me, but i feel like I'm in a moment of clarity right now, i didn't even have to nut to degenerate stuff to achieve clarity this time!Lets go!

I don't expect a lot of people to read this, but if you did, feel free to lmk what you think, I'd appreciated it. Thanks for reading this far!You're a real one for that💪🏾💪🏾