I've recently been trying to get more in tune with my sissy side by doing things that brings out those sub/girly feelings so I can figure out what triggers them. One of those being scrolling through the a Big D custom feed. Going through all those pics, it made me realize something. I REALLY like them thick.

My sissy curiosity began from watching straight porn. I noticed myself paying attention to two main things: the guys size and the girls face, and I would get jealous. Jealous of how good she felt, that shed be so overcome by blissful ecstasy that it would show on her face. I wanted to know what that mind melting pleasure felt like.

More importantly, I would get jealous of how big the guy was, mainly his girth. The way it stretched a woman open and made her completely surrender herself, was something I felt I couldnt do because I wasnt half as thick as them. It made me feel less masculine. So it would stand to figure that if I wasnt a real man, my role would be to take dick from a one, an idea that I wasn't exactly opposed to as explained above.

So thats why scrolling through tht feed is now part of my sissyfication routine. I didnt realize it was even possible to be that big, and It serves as constant reinforcement that Im not a real man. By stripping away my masculinity, it creates room for me to feel more submissive and accept my place as beneath them.

And thats the crux of why girth turns me on, because I see it is one of the main indicators of masculinity. Whether or not you're capable of pleasuring someone into total submission from your cock alone.

Now, I'm not saying this is the case for all sissies, I know everyone has their preferences and bigger isnt always better, yadda yadda . But this is just me exploring the things that trigger my fem side so that I can eventually get used to being her more often. Thanks for reading!

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P.S.: Sorry in advance for all the horrible sentence formatting, my mind was a bit . . . preoccupied to think properly lol, so the sentence structure suffered as a result 😂. Hope it's not too bad, I'll probably fix it later haha. Anyways. Toodles! ✌🏾