Hi I’m new here, a 32 year old single mom. I have 2 children one 9 with special needs and another 5. They both go to school and they have separate fathers. I’m posting this because I moved to another state with my children by myself to give them a better life. I’m fairly successful. They go to private school and have a life they wouldn’t have had in NYC (where we moved from). My oldest has a father who was addicted to gambling and used my pregnancy and son to lock me to him thinking that would make me not leave him. Then my second sons father left me for another woman. What I feel is unfair is that I have no life outside of work and my children. I don’t have time to hang out or party or relax I don’t know many people where I moved so I have no babysitter really and no support.

*side note- I don’t trust just many people with my children due to when we lived in nyc and my oldest son was 3 he was sexually abused by a day care worker at a “reputable” day care. *

What’s unfair to me is both of their fathers don’t pay much for their sons (one not at all) and courts are tied up due to covid. Yet they have all this freedom to party and have fun. I follow them both on Instagram to give them pictures. They both have such active happy lives…..it’s so unfair and I just cry because I feel unattractive with these two kids and no life and no anything…