I dont post here usually but Not exactly sure whats going on anymore maybe stress from elections comming up. Loneliness or Maybe some unresolved issue that ive yet again forgotten about : P. But im not doing well. Ive been emotionally out of wack for a few months now .My head keeps ketting kicked into two seperate headspaces between the world isnt real therefore there are no longer any conciquences or im going through puberty again. I lost my sense of smell IRL yet My dreams has somehow fabricated smells and words have sense then been clearer to read. I look like shit cause nothing matters and my dreams are real and real is not. On the other hand im experincing every emotion at once. Im crying but happy im smiling yet depressed im angry yet glad. Etc my tolerance for people had plummeted which is not good for working in the kicthen with a verbally abusive cheif. Ive snapped back at him and ive yet been paranoid as hell about being fired. When in call with my friends i just start crying...no reason at all. My emotions overload and my heart feels like its about to expload. And i just cry. Im not sure if im gonna spiral any further down because i feel like im currently wrapped up in this shitty game of brain tennis.