Took 4gs of pe never took more than 2gs. I couldn’t make sense of my trip. The come up and peak were great but twords the end of the trip things got bad. I felt like I was insane I couldn’t make sense of what was going on almost as if I was in a different reality but I was still able to tell what was real and wasn’t somewhat. I did have a trip sitter which really when she was around I could tell what was real. I couldn’t hold a conversation at all. thinking was all over the place. For the worst part of this trip I felt as though I would much rather be locked up in a looney bin even with all my insane thoughts than be sober and deal with reality I am going through a serious rough patch in life. It felt like quite a traumatic event took place I think I need to seek some mental help someone to talk to because as I know I wasn’t dying but I wanted to die. I didn’t want to live anymore and I wasn’t very panicked I wasn’t freaking out like this might sound. The only way I can really describe the feeling would be loosing a close loved one. Anyway I’m having a hard time taking anything away from this trip other then I need to seek mental health. Will totally be taking another 4gs of some z strain next time I’m feeling comfortable. I’m also really unsure if I experienced ego death but for a while I was getting angry because I hated the person I am sober but I didn’t really know why exactly well Maybe we’ll find out next time. I’d love to try 5gs next time but any ideas how to not feel insane and not want to go hurt my self or others anyways happy shrooming!