Had about 1.1 mg of African peony at about 5:45 pm. It was pure dried mushroom which I crushed into finer powder, added some lemon juice and water to it, and took it all in like a shot on an empty stomach.

It took a good 25 mins to kick in. After that for the next 2 hours until 7:30 pm, I had a mix of high panic/anxiety attacks. I was very edgy the whole time and just curled up trying to beat the anxiety. Every thought would trail down to a thought of anxiety, it was horrible. Essentially I wanted it to stop. I didn't cry or anything but definitely felt a little pukish - didn't puke though. I kept changing my scene when I was having the attack hoping it would somehow magically help. Though it help a teeny tiny bit when I went out in the backyard and slept in the grasses and stared up at the sky.

When I was lying down, it felt like I could roll sideways.

Then right at 7:45 ish - the panic attack almost instantly reduced and the shroom effect started. It felt amazing - I could see colors and visions and a lot of light everywhere. Everything had like a glow filter on it. I have bad vision, so when I wasn't wearing my glasses, I could see faces forming up when I stared at someone's face a couple of yards away. Various shapes were forming like - Goofy ears, monkey masks, yellow cheetah faces.. etc... That just won't stop and it was fascinating. The tree in front of me was breathing - like really breathing. The lawn chairs look like a coiled-up anaconda. Every cloud was a picture - every single cloud was already an image I had seen somewhere, it was crazy. The sky had a fish eye effect. I could create more or fewer clouds in the sky if I wanted to, it was crazy.

The sky was clear that day but when I say the sky on shrooms - it was SO much clearer. I cannot possibly explain how different the sky looked. When I stared at the grass, there were blue-colored patterns everywhere on the lawn. I had lots of things I wanted to say to other people - I should have written them down somewhere, alas I couldn't remember it all.

I heard voices and sounds trailing away... like sounds underwater when you hit two rocks together. Slowly the effects started to get less and less intense and in 5 hours - it was all back to normal. The panic/anxiety attack was the worst part of the experience, not sure what caused it - I was outside on the deck - if anyone can explain that to me I would be grateful and on how to avoid it the next time.

Edit 1: My heart rate was around 60- 85 the whole time.

Edit 2:

- What should someone do for the panic/anxiety attack that happens for the first 1-2 hours after consuming shrooms?

- How does African peony compares to Penis Envy in terms of the trip, is it stronger/different?