So my sister and I decided to try shrooms for the first time today(still kinda tripping as I write this). I honestly can’t tell you how much I had... I guess half a 1/8th? Idk. At first we made tea and after we drank it, we laid down and watched Larva Island on Netflix. It was so weird but we couldn’t stop laughing. Then I just got reeeeaally sleepy. She said she wasn’t feeling anything so we split a top. After that I took maybe two hits from my bong and played some music. Then my sister said that we might as well finish it since it was just 2 stems(huuuge stems🙄😅). I didn’t want to cause I was chillin but she told me just to take it... so I did, ugh. It tasted gross and then got stuck in my teeth. Had a wood-like texture to it. I’m usually filled with anxiety and taking that last stem just made me overflow with anxiety. After chewing it I was gonna spit it out cause I know my body already. Usually when I trip on acid, I know my limits(for the most part lol). I already knew that me wanting to spit it out was gonna change my mindset cause it was something I didn’t want to do. This is all happening in our garage btw. I started to feel like I was in a small box and couldn’t breathe well, so we took a walk. It was raining a little but it was still beautiful outside. I started to feel super nauseous so I felt like I was probably gonna start peaking. Again I have no clue what’s going on because it was both our first time. I wish I would’ve had someone experienced with us for that reassurance. She said she was feeling normal but I was tripping. I looked down at my feet and the floor stretched further down so I had to look up at the clouds. Thinking about it now, everything was so beautiful but I couldn’t focus on that at the time cause I was feeling so much anxiety. I felt so alone on this trip cause I was the only one feeling something. I started to feel a little upset and overwhelmed because I didn’t want to take the last stem but took it anyway and here we are. I had to mentally slap myself and say “you’re a big girl, you took it. Now it’s time to strap in for this ride” took some deep breaths and tried to enjoy the walk. My stomach starting hurting like I had to shit but I was scared that if I did, it would intensify... so I haven’t taken a shit yet. We got home and I just felt all over the place. I was feeling overwhelmed cause I just couldn’t relax. I hated that I was the only one going through it and I felt like I couldn’t talk about anything cause she couldn’t relate. I finally said fuck it and creeped my way to my room so I wouldn’t run into my parents. My husband and son were napping so I got into bed, hugged my husband and buried my face in his back. I think I fell asleep cause it’s now 2 1/2 hours later. My mind was doing it’s own thing the whole time. It was an interesting experience. It took me back to my first time doing liquid. I also got a lot of anxiety that time, but I was with new people and an Airbnb that was built to trip you out. You think I would’ve had so much fun buuut 🤷‍♀️ Anyways, I’m laying here feeling semi-sober. Debating if I should just shit so my stomach stops hurting. Also feeling like an asshole for being mad at my sister for pressuring me to do that last stem. We thought we planned this out perfectly, but it just didn’t work out. I just wish I could get rid of the anxiety and just enjoy it. I was gonna take a Xanax but wasn’t sure what that would do.

Am I crazy for wanting to try it again ?