I experienced complete ego death drank 1 cup of cold water extract with 82 grams of fresh cubes it started fine then at about 2 and a half hours later I started listening to native American meditation music I closed my I eyes and saw my self split into three squares which started spinning around each other then morphed into 3 wolves all growling ready to pounce then realized which wolf was me and I morphed into a person and shot both wolves but when I went to look at them they weren't wolves they were innocent baby deer and I was horrified I questioned why I had killed an innocent animal why did I steal the innocence of the animal then I thought why have I always had an attraction to innocence and I thought maybe because mine was taken but I never remembered anything ever happening to me so I decided to dig through my mind and see what pops up and first thing is a memory of being at a neighbor's house when I was 6 or 7 and he was 14 and at first I told myself nothing happened then I thought about it and I was still like nothing happened then like a door opening I saw the whole memory of being molested and I've just been picking up the pieces since then