Hey everyone, if you saw my recent post https://www.reddit.com/r/shrooms/s/y9XlLR18kn then this is an update to that. This was my third time taking mushrooms. And this was my highest dose( 3.5g of penis envy). I’m gonna try to make this short but I ended up needing to throw up. I called out to my sister for help in that moment. I blacked out and I woke up having a panic attack. I literally felt like I was about to die, I felt like something was so wrong. I kept FaceTiming my friend that I had let know I was tripping. I remember I kept asking my sister what I did wrong. What did I do wrong. Fast forward im talking to my friend on the phone ab how I feeling and it took some time, but eventually i started crying my eyes out. I told him how I felt that him and our friend group looked down on me. He reassured me through the whole thing. I ended up calling some other friends that I had to talk to and let them know what was going. I’m so so thankful that they were all understanding of how I was feeling. It made me realize I have this circle around me. Before I felt like nobody really gave a damn about me. After all this I really do fell so appreciative.

But after having those talks with my friends, I knew I had to talk to my sister. I told her how I was feeling and she was really understanding. In this moment of me typing this, I don’t feel anything but pure bliss. But I know I can’t let this go to waste and need to start working on myself as a person. I did leave out a couple things tbh. But I was really thankful to see all of you guys in the comments trying to help me through it. My intention was to understand myself more. Peel back a layer of what I had been hiding from. Ngl after all this I’m feeling happy and relieved asf. Proud of myself for working through it.