Hey yall, I tried shrooms for the first time a few months ago, and another couple times in the last month or so, and wanted to ask about the general feeling im supposed to be expecting.

Trip #1: me and 2 friends of mine all took 2g (I don't recall the strain) and after about an hour and a half of nothing, we went out to the woods to toke up. The second we starting hitting the bong the trip properly started and I began seeing creepy, but not trip ruining shit, in the darkness of the woods, so we finished the bowl and went back home and just chilled, watched some music videos, and played with a bunch of sensory toys until the trip ended about 4-5 hours later. Wasn't super anxious for most of it but also don't remember it as well as the others.

Trip #2: me and the same two friends were all hanging out, then I took 2g, and one of my friends took 4g (golden teachers), and the third one trip sat for a bit before going home. I remember feeling super anxious for most of the trip, like my friends were annoyed by me and that kinda stuff, but otherwise was mostly just chilling, doing the same as last time. We didn't smoke any weed at all and it was a pretty solid night, definitely stronger visuals than the first time.

Trip #3 (a few days ago): this time was at a different friends house, and it was me and 6 others. Me and 2 of my bros took about 1-1.5g of golden teachers again (soaked in lemon juice iirc), and i was ripping tf outta my buddy's cart, ended up super high and extremely overwhelmed/overstimulated for most of the night; 2 different conversations, loud music, one guy playing an acoustic guitar, my phone and one of my friends phones on silly Instagram reels, just way too much, but I didn't wanna move cuz it was weirdly nice in a way?? I started to feel like I was coming down a good bit later so I hit the cart some more and it came back in waves after that. Eventually 3 of my friends left and the remaining of us were just kinda vibing, night kinda sucked but was still enjoyable lmao.

Tl:dr 2/3 of the times I've tripped gotten really anxious, and had a really awful body feeling, like I was about to throw up and just general uneasiness, but the trip was still overall good.

My main questions are if I need to find better shrooms (both strain and source), do them by myself, and any general recommendations for a beginner?