I took 10g undried (I am not sure whether it was completely fresh or somewhat dried though, they were in a vacuum packaging) Mexicana truffels two days ago. We consumed it as a tea with my friend.

When I started to feel the effect it was good at the beginning. I was looking at how colorful everything was and I was going up and down in the room dancing to Pink Floyd music. My friend mostly sat on the sofa with closed eyes amazed by his visuals.

For him the whole trip was good. For me after the initial good feeling I started to have amplyfied anxiety. I was afraid that I will be like that forever and that I caused psychosis to myself and nobody can help etc. The anxiety/borderline panic came in waves and as the effect gradually wore off they became less intens. The anxiety waves correlated with seeing visuals. When I saw the visuals more intensely was when I had more intensive anxiety.

After 6-7 hours it became kind of normal again but I couldn’t sleep properly that night. When I tried to sleep I had weird fragmanted pseudo dreams in half sleeping state so I woke up again and again. I could finally sleep 2 hours two times during the night.

The next day was kind of normal but I still had some anxiety waves that I vould manage. Emotionally I felt a little different. I had similar feelings that I had in the time when I was bullied in school. It was a very difficult time of my life but I though I processed it. I had similar panic attacks at the time and additionally I had derealization/depersonalization (which I don’t have now fortunately) paranoia and felt intense sadness. Toward the end of the day it was pretty okay. I spoke to my mum and that calmed me and I felt normal for a while. I went to sleep early as I was pretty tired.

Now I woke up at 4:30 AM and had anxiety again. I focused on the fact that I am not feeling normal emotionally and started to have thought loops that I ruined something in me and can’t feel normal etc. I was worried that I did something with my default mode network which was working properly previously. I felt pretty good about my life before. Now I am scared and sometimes very sad. Focusing on things help a lot, but when I am alone with my thoughts I feel off.

Is it normal after a trip? Will I be at baseline again? How long does it take? I don’t understand why I feel this even after the substance is metabolized completely.

I am 33 F btw and this was my first time trying mushrooms.