Hi yall. Back from the other side here and I vinquished fear itself!

I (M22) kept dipping toes with 1.5, 1.8 because i was scared of going back to a full dose. I wanted the psychadelic experience again but i definitely have had hard times with mushrooms and some bad trips. Ever since then ive always been weighing out my doses and preparing them with lemon and ginger to try and avoid nausea. Today I fcking Comitted and im super fcking proud of myself. I jumped. A friend from Honduras came over. She had no experience with mushrooms and wanted to see and i was glad she was here to assist with the whole "being a person" part of the trip. She didn't take any. She kept speaking to me in spanish during the trip (which I understand for the most part) and I was speaking mostly english and some french (we're in France rn) and spanish.

I went into the trip with a lot of fear, but also excitement to go back in a psychadellic space. I met that friend only 2 months ago and we speak different languages so I was definitely cautiously curious about bonding with her and making myself vulnerable like this but we get along super well so I went with it.

I took 3g in a lemon tek / ginger tea shot (i do a small tea and shoot it otherwise I can't. And 3g was a lot to take at once. It makes me gag writing it. I had only had a banana 2 hours prior.

We waited about an hour and 15 minutes in my room listening to music and the come up is still blurry. It was like being pulled out of reality and finding a space between this psychadelic world and reality (realidad as we called it) because I had to comunicate. The nausea, fear and anxiety were definitely there but I feel like the more I talked and got into the flow of a conversation, the better I felt. As if I forgot them because I was focused. I was getting stong and very pleasant visuals. White walls were full of patterns that were changing colors. The titles of my blurays started dancing and the face of my friend was glowing. Her skin was flowing and her hair was like a shower of light. I could see the spectrum of light as if everything was rainbows.

I had a long and difficult trip to the baño where had to avoid my roommates because i was paranoid, we went outside. The stairs to get down the 5 stories building were interesting. They had patterns that kept moving and it felt like walking on moving rocks and every hall was a civilization of rocks. When we finally got down to the main hall it was like a monster giant but we got past him and seeing the outside world was insane! The flowers, the trees, were all glowing. The cars looked like magestic beasts and they were breathing. We passed to bald men that according to my friend were regular people but to me they were bald mosters with dark sunglasses that looked at us.

We went to campus and the whole city has construction. All the noises made me feel like Clark Kent or Xavier discovering their powers and I wanted the noise to stop. Finally getting to campus, the grass, the trees, i fell in love with everything. Everything was love and I loved everything. I wanted to marry the park. I hadn't been that happy ever I think (maybe on 4g but it was different)

We found a portal which we said led to Mexico (not the actual Mexico but the Narnia version ). Turns out that whole space since we left the room was a Narnia type land. I felt exactly the as the pevency kids when they were back in england. I know this land exists, i have been and I know things a lot of people won't experience because they're too into real life. Ive opened my eyes to this magical place. It will still exist and i might go back there someday but for now I have to live in reality.

I was Born in France and had moved to Cali to teach elementary school. I found mushrooms in Cali. I unfortunately had to leave because i couldn't renew my visa and my life goal has been to live in California so I had a hard time adjusting to being in France and this journey helped with accepting. Just like Narnia. It still exists, my frienda are still there and it will be waiting for me. But right now I have to be in the real world.

I have gotten over my fear and I have comitted, taken the risk, dove head first and took the leap of faith. I feel proud. I found a whole new world and I feel patiently excited to go back and learn more. I feel at peace, powerful and even though im scared still of taking on life, I am excited to live MY life. I know it's going to be wonderful.

My very first mushroom trip was about a year ago. August 2023. And I have loved every day as a psychonaute. I love this community, and thanks everyone on this sub who shares and educates so that everyone can experience valuable journeys in total safety.

Ps: if yall have any integration tips, feel free to share. It's hard to find a place for the real world in all this.