Took about 5-6 grams of the strain penis envy this weekend with my girlfriend who took a lower dose. For the first few hours I was throughly enjoying my experience. I was listening to music, dancing, and coloring. I started to come down and eventually my girlfriend and I laid in bed and were talking while we watched spirited away in the background. I began hitting our weed cart and after a few minutes went by I started to get lost in a thought loop. The movie started melting away on the screen and I couldn’t discern my own thoughts from what the movie was saying. I then felt this intense feeling shot through my body and jolted out of bed. I was fully convinced I was experiencing a heart attack as I felt my heart beat faster and thought my left arm was in a pain (a common symptom of a heart attack). I told my girlfriend I was having a heart attack and she needed to call the ambulance right away. She knew I was just tripping so she tried to just convince me that I was just on shrooms and was paranoid. I fully thought I was dying and proceeded to go in and out of thought loops where I was on my death bed and she was just watching me die not calling anyone for help. I began to become very dizzy and my vision got incredibly blurred. She made me take off my sweater and lay in bed while I started contemplating my life and felt if I closed my eyes I would die and be gone forever. This feeling of death and the inability to do anything about it truly shook me. I also was upset that this person who I love would invalidate me and just watch me die while doing nothing. I felt like I was never going to be able to say bye to my parents or family and my past decisions have contributed to my early demise. After a while and with the help of my girlfriend I began to understand I was not having a heart attack and just tripping. Although I would go in and out of thought loops where I’d again feel that intense feeling of death looming over me. Eventually, that feeling faded but I got stuck in loops that I felt like I was experiencing things over and over again and it would never end. I convinced myself I was going crazy and would be experiencing the never ending loops forever. Luckily I began coming down and after this rough night was able to sleep. After this experience I am having a hard time shaking that feeling of death particularly. I truly felt I was moments away from being gone forever and it is hard to forgot it was just a trip. Although I have experienced other psychedelics and have done ayahuasca this experience was the toughest thing I have ever encountered perhaps in life.