My trips keep getting stronger and in turn they keep getting better. I took the rue 30 minutes prior and set 7g of fruit in orange juice with a dash of passion flower and let it sit for 30 minutes. Took about 45 minutes to kick in.

I have my Playlist of Melloish type trap music I listen to and it took me on a journey. I really thought about people I missed and lost over the years. I wished the people I no longer know good tidings and hope they did well (like they could hear me). Many times I "played" the piano for the music. Later I would think about politics (I know... terrible) but I felt like I was stirring a rebellion. I had numerous thoughts on how we the people need to take over, and be free again, because at that moment I was totally free. Later I would think about the influential women in my life and how they guided me to where I'm at now.

3-4 hours later my music was through. I sat on the couch staring into nothingness. I tried to get up, I tried... but I'd follow a pattern of dying, slowly slipping into nothingness as the calm death came over me. It happened twice and then I got stuck in a loop thinking the same thoughts over and over. Wasn't until my fiance got home that I broke that cycle. Ended the trip by chilling and watching Rick and Morty. Always a great time. Can't wait till the next in 2 or so weeks.