Heres mine!

Haven’t done shrooms since i experienced an ego death, about 2 years now i think? The criteria of whether or not someone has had an ego death is also pretty interesting, but for me i’m sure i have completely on the fact that i was no doubt convinced i was dead and had to face the repercussions of it.

I think the basis of an ego death is being so desensitized from reality and senses that the only other presumption that a person tripping can make is that what they’re feeling is exactly what it feels like to be dead. In my opinion and philosophy of death, consciousness sustains while the physical vehicle is taken away, leaving the mind and soul alone together to make up for what our past physical self would observe (earth, air, land, society, connections, relationships for example)

Now getting into my experience with the proper preface…

I was home alone and this guy from grindr had given me an ounce of penis envy after a hookup (i know very weird i’m sorry) and i planned on taking a 3g trip for the night. This time i wanted to meditate and manifest for the first time in shrooms, as i had always found shrooms to be more of a spiritual recreation than just “let’s get high!!” type of recreation LOL I wanted to try an astral projection session during this trip as well. I sat on my bed and did some breath work to get into the mind state per usual, but for some reason the come up was taking longer than expected, little did i know i was just used to tripping and i was full on at the time i made the decision to take 3 MORE GRAMS OF SHROOMS. Absolutely dumbest idea ever, who let me get ahold of that many grams i don’t know. Don’t remember too much after that to be honest, but heres a sum of everything i do remember seeing and thinking and feeling…

Every inch of my vision was like someone put a spiral filter on my retinas. My heartbeat was in control of every sound i heard, each beat forcing every sound picked up to repeat a couple times like an echo in my mind. Though, everything was so quiet at the same time, i was home alone and it was 1am. At the hight of my trip, i was convinced i had died. Its kinda funny too because i remember thinking that if i couldn’t hear myself breathe i was suffocating and eventually i calmed down enough that i couldn’t hear it and thats what convinced me entirely.

I remember having to make a choice, either accepting what the shrooms have done to me and rising to the spiritual plane, or fighting them and surviving the night. The whole time i was also trying to fall asleep cuz i didn’t trust what i would do with the hallucinations. Like i knew that i had to be quiet and passive with whatever i was doing to not draw attention to my mom, but also tripping out of my mind the entire time— completely oblivious of probably the strongest grounding affirmation anyone could have… that they’re doing this for fun at home! LMFAO

Theres so much i could talk about but the biggest note i could give would be that during the climax it felt like a curtain was thrown open. It felt like my perspective of the universe was a sentient being and i could talk to it and sense its intentions with me. I still think that i was shown and taught things that we’re supposed to help me in life like a cheat code and the one thing that stuck was this:

Every human on this planet has a “soul” or power source or in other words an origin of consciousness, that is separate from their physical body. I saw this as a glowing aura that stood directly behind you, beams of light that connected to the back of our skulls like an IV bag (different hues for each person). This sentient body that i called the universe for an unknown reason told me that these souls purpose on earth is to learn lesson of all kinds, eventually living enough lives that they become “pure” like they have learned every lesson about life possible, it told me that its very similar to reaching nirvana. It said that buddhism is the most accurate religion as well. Once a soul lives out its lessons it rises to the spiritual plane, but thats where my visions stopped and i started freaking out LOL