Context: around October or November of 2022 I had an extremely bad trip after taking 7 grams of mushrooms mistakenly (scaled read half of what it actually was so me and my friends thought we were taking 3 grams) while I was on Prozac 20mg and high on weed, and I experienced a really heavy ego death. For months after I was in a major state of depression and completely derealized and depersonalized. Eventually I got out of the derealization, depersonalization, and depression (mostly not entirely because I just have depression anyway and still experience issues with both depersonalization and derealization), and life was feeling pretty normal again for the most part for some time. I still dealt with (and still am currently, just worsened now) OCD, anxiety, bipolar, ADHD, and depression on a daily basis, but I’ve had those issues starting from a very very young age and they’ve only gotten worse over time. I was going through a very stressful time in my life and still am and ended up getting drunk for the first time in a while a few nights ago. While drunk me and some friends stupidly decided to take shrooms at 1:30 am. I did not want to take them, but unfortunately some peer pressure convinced my drunken self it would be good and fix my brain from the last bad trip. I started to get kind of anxious shortly after consuming my gram of shrooms, so I went outside and talked to one of the guys I was tripping with for an hour or two. During this outside time I felt pretty good, but just a little on edge so I smoked a bunch of weed to feel better. Once I went back inside, one of the other guys we were tripping with was acting weird and it made me start to have bad anxiety so I went in my room with my cat for the night. While in my room I tried hard to sleep and tried hard not to majorly freak out. Eventually after hours of anxiety and visuals when I closed my eyes, I was able to sleep. The next couple days I felt really disconnected and weird, but not necessarily depressed. It was not until the third day of fourth day when I realized the effects of the shrooms were lingering and it felt like I was still tripping some almost. Everything I looked at seemed fake and like I was in a dream, and I felt completely disconnected from myself. I did some research and found that other people have reported the effects lingering for months even years especially in people with bipolar (like myself.) I figured this is what I am experiencing currently, or I have convinced myself I am but am actually just super derealized, depersonalized, and depressed. I had a breakdown and went to a behavioral health place to get evaluated and set up therapy sessions. The therapy sessions were absurdly no help after I realized it was group therapy with complete strangers much older than myself, which ended up just giving me a bad panic attack and another breakdown. I started new therapy with someone actually helpful that same night and now today (the next day) I feel a little better, but still not better at all. I really just want to get back to normal and feel like I did before I ever took shrooms because I still haven’t been the same since the 7 gram bad trip in 2022. I smoke weed everyday and have for the past two and a half years, and have considered trying to stop and see if that makes me reconnect to myself again. It’s almost like I’ve forgotten how to act like myself and how to even act like a normal person. I feel like I’m going to go insane or something if this doesn’t get better, which makes me very depressed and hopeless about my future. If there’s any advice someone has to get back to my normal self before ego death and everything it would be greatly appreciated.