Why am i not feeling mushrooms. Yes they are real, have blue bruising and i grew them.

I grew last year took 2g nothing happened then took total of 8g in the same day in 4hr period nothing happened just felt drunk. No visuals not ego death nothing no feeling different no high. I was growing them for my depression since it isn't going away and i tried many different medicines for 2 years. i am off meds from 4 months

Then this year i tried again and 2 days back i eat 9g in a day over 6hr period again nothing maybe some swirling and wobble display when focused.

Then the next day again i tried 30g as it is (not dry) felt just a little drunk but no pattern or anything.

Why is that so? Why