I did a moderate dose today. Not really sure the strain. Watched the trust on Netflix and man everyone looked so fucking crazy and scary to me.

It led me to the idea that maybe mushrooms strip away a part of the brain that kind of…mellows down how we view people so that we’re not always freaking out about meeting new people etc. or terrified at how they appear. But dang everyone on that show looked so trippy, especially juelz, Julie, and jay. Lindsay too.

Then I transitioned to looking at my dating apps and ended up deleting them. I really started to reflect on my dating history and was quite appalled at my taste in men so I figured it’s probably a good time to be alone for now. Just focus on myself and prioritize my well being.

But yeah it was just so trippy, like I wonder how much of our brain actively tries to protect our sanity. Tone down our visuals of people, both physically and energetically just so we don’t freak the fuck out all the time. When I’m on shrooms things just feel so clear. Like my personal thoughts and dialogue doesn’t feel as loud and I just focus on what’s presented in front of me and fully take it in. Even when I reflect on past experiences I feel like I’m looking through a different lens and it just feels like clarity.

Or maybe it’s just the drugzzz idk 😖