Been going through some thing lately and for a long time I met my childhood best friend again(we don’t speak about years nor months but for 2-3 week,when we used to live together we were that close),and the reason why we didn’t met more often is mostly on me. We ate,got a bottle of vodka,and smoked some thc carts then we ate more and went back to his apartment where we used to live together. We started playing on his Xbox,and I felt the same connection again after a long time that made us so unique. That feeling,and his success (carrier,nice place,workout achievements etc)made me have a panic attack so I left. As I got home I couldn’t help but cry uncontrollably,and I just had this feeling I need to let him know how much I love him so I wrote a letter put it in a iPhone box and taped it,I didn’t have any envelope. I wish I would’ve wrote more but everything important is in it. I told him he can open it only if either 1;I die earlier than him 2;he feels he is the saddest on the planet and there’s no future. I gave it to him and hugged him,after many many many years even when he was needed it. This time I needed that hug,and honestly,my best friend who I grow up with basically,who I lived with,and who I counted on the most,was barely in that hug. Appreciate your best friends till you can!