I have been dealing with a heartbreak and abandonment. All my friends are getting married. My friend said, purchase that dress for the bridal event and wear it." you deserve it." So I purchased it. Maybe too some 300 dress is not much to some people but to me it it considering I will probably only wear it that once for the event. I ordered two other alternatives for less and then two other dresses should be arriving this week. Then I will decide what dress I will wear to the event. I purchased some heels to go with the dress too. It is the only sense of thrill I feel and happiness for a short time. But a positive is I have been returning some items I purchased. I have compulsive shopping problem and it doesn't help all the dresses I like are usually sold out or I have to wait on the waitlist. So when I see something I like I am afraid it will sell out and I buy it.

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I also bought my friends some accessories for their weddings and lot of gifts. I bought them each two gifts from their registry. It makes me happy but I've think I've spent too much on that too. Another addiction I have, is Starbucks. I usually spend like 20 bucks there every morning Monday- Friday. I buy a drink refresher and breakfast there everyday. But I usually tell myself "Who else is going to spoil me but myself. I deserve it."