So a year ago I came to the realization I’m addicted to shopping. And I have all the excuses in the book! It’s a present, for a future project, good deal, vintage ‘find,’ etc.

It got to the point I couldn’t afford rent one month. I put financial measures in place to try and reduce the spending by giving myself an allowance, and putting all bills on auto pay (also set up separate accounts so I could access savings or my paycheck deposit).

The bigger issue was buying online. I felt like I just couldn’t “let it get away” on auction sites because the price was so good compared to value. I told myself these were also investments in jewels and precious metals. So I deleted the social media accounts and set limits on my phone to restrict access to sites.

I lack discipline, I always known so, and it has lead to continuation of visiting thrift/craft store or ‘browse’ online listings. My impulsivity is ruining my relationship with my partner to the point they no longer trust me. I find myself avoiding the discussion of my daily activities if it involved shopping. I hide the items I purchase so he not only is unaware of my purchasing them but of what I’m purchasing.

Could there be deeper psych issues going on? Sure. Have I worked to understand why I do this and how to change. No, not really. I need help, from people who have been down this road and have broken the cycle. Tell me what worked, what didn’t, what you changed, how long it took and any sources you have. Much appreciated!