First Valentine's Day without my late husband and boy did I spiral. By noon I had spent almost $1,000. Then it became small purchases here and there. By the afternoon I came to realization of what I had done.

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I emailed and canceled several orders, bringing the total spent down to $100.

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I do want to acknowledge that I recognized I had made a mistake and emailed and put in for cancelations right away. I would rather NOT bother browsing and being compulsive in my moments of grief. I knew when my husband passed shopping would probably become my clutch, and I have been working hard to keep it under control. I have spent today redirecting myself; listening to audio books and organizing, if only I could remember to do this in my weakest points.

Today I will also be taking the time to remove my payment information from my Apple Wallet, PayPal and autofill in Safari.