I'm a 25-year-old androgynous guy and currently consider myself pansexual but I'm having doubts and wondering if I'm just in denial over the fact that I might actually be gay.

Sexually, I'm more into guys but romantically I'm more into women, though I'm not totally against having sex with women and I'm even more open with the possibility of a romantic relationship with a guy. It's just that I struggle to imagine myself having sex with a woman without a lot of difficulty but I find myself constantly craving a romantic relationship with a woman.

I'm open to a romantic relationship with a guy but not nearly as much. Instead, my hormones go through the roof when thinking of having sex with a guy. I can get horny and jerk off to the thought of women but only in a more aesthetic or sensual way. With men, it's mostly involving penetrative sex. Very rarely I'll imagine myself penetrating a woman or her penetrating me.

This has confused me because I feel like I'm being torn two different ways, like I can't have both. I know a romantic relationship isn't dependent on sex but it's still something I have difficulty figuring out all the time. I'm not sure where to go from here or if I really am just gay and clutching to a heteroromantic fantasy.

TL;DR: I'm sexually attracted to men and romantically attracted to women, and confused as to how to deal with it or wondering if I'm just gay.