Assaulted by my mom many times during g childhood (I'm male) this sort of heterosexual abuse is something I never see about online and just want some perspective on. She flashed me and would make me cuddle with her and shame me for masturbating and call me gay and shit(am either straight or asexual not quite sure)but made me get naked sometimes and I had no privacy. Shit is fucked and I would be like mom I don't wanna cuddle I'm a teenager and she would guilt me and I would feel so bad and violated.theres probably more that I'm repressing, I'm sure there is. Thus wasn't the only kind of abuse from her by a Longshot but basically, I cry if I try to get intimate with a girl because I'm fucking traumatized. I can only watch trans, lesbian or gay porn I can't even think about healthy fulfilling sex that I would be a part of. When I get naked for a girl I have a panic attack. I legitimately don't even know how to heal from this, I feel fucked. Completely fucked in this regard. I'm healing from the other abuse but this is a fucking festering g wound I close my eyes and I still see it.