I(F17) linked up with this guy(M18), but I didn’t want to have sex with him. I told him the day before we linked that I didn’t. And I told him when we were together that I didn’t want to have sex. I made it very clear. But he kept trying to pressure me. We were already making out & stuff but I still had my pants on. I didn’t plan to have sex with him. He asked if I’d at least take my pants off, underwear could stay on but he wanted to look at me so I said ok. He pulled my underwear to the side and starting sticking his pp in. I could’ve easily beat him up but I didn’t. I didn’t fight him off. I just let it happen. I figured in my head that he was already going for it so why not? And we had sex. But it just doesn’t sit right with me. I didn’t give him consent. He couldn’t read my mind. When I confront him about it he gets really defensive. Says stuff like “I’m busy can we not talk about this” or “are you trying to start something”. I just want to talk to him about it. Because it’s eating me up. We wouldn’t have had sex if he had respected me. But I wonder if I’m blowing it out of proportion. He didn’t attack me. Yes, I didn’t want to have sex with him, but I never felt in danger. I don’t think it’s worth pressing charges for. But It makes me feel really really bad when I think about it now. Like technically inserting ur dick in someone without consent is rape but did he actually rape me? It just doesn’t seem so black and white. I didn’t even know him very well but somehow he took over my body. Do women even own their bodies?