Hi. I’m Ally. I’m 18 and during some of this time I was 17, hence the flair. I met my then boyfriend (18 then) at our job. We both worked a grocery store and I thought that he was cute, but he looked a lot older than I thought he was. Long story short, we ended up going out on a date and I’m just now realizing what was happening to me. On our first date, he tried to have intimacy with me. I had already told him that I didn’t want to have sex or anything yet. I wasn’t ready. He always seemed annoyed by that, even then. From then on, he would grope me. All the time. Everywhere. He used to grab my hand and force me to touch his penis. I had multiple panic attacks one night after he tried to go further than I was comfortable with. And since that night I haven’t been able to cry about it. There were many other times where he would touch me and force me to do things that I really didn’t want to do, and I guess I just needed to tell someone because I don’t have anyone else to tell.