So there’s been a few situations ive been in and idk what to call it. I was in a training for a job about SA. I had to leave because I having flashbacks to one of the events specifically but the others then followed. There are 3 scenarios and I’m going to list them in order of how I remembered them.

1. I was with a now former partner and we were alone in a summer camp dining hall. It was late and we were cuddling. They started touching me and preforming oral, but I was sleeping. I was having a dream that my partner before them was doing those things to me. Those sensations woke me up and I realized that it wasn’t a dream. It made me feel gross and violated and overall icky. I recoiled from them and somewhat hid in the corner. Then I went non-verbal and started crying. They comforted me through that and I accepted it because it seemed they were genuinely concerned. They thought I was still awake and apparently I was mumbling and making “approving noises”.

2. My first partner and I engaged in oral inter-corse. There were times they were mad or grumpy and wanted me to do it to cheer them up, regardless of if I wanted to or not. If I didn’t they would ignore me and act very harshly towards me. They later found out that I was looking at porn and said that if I didn’t they would tell others that I was looking at porn.

3. I went on a date with someone I knew. It was a cuddle date as we already knew the basics about each other from being friends. We started cuddling and watching a movie completely non-sexual in nature everything was completely devoid of anything sexual. Part way through the movie they pull me into themselves and started kissing me and playing with my hair. That turned into them whispering in my ear that they wanted me as they started groping me and biting me. I never verbally consented and I didn’t really want to have sex with them but I did. I was worried about them not wanting to be with me if I said no.

Are these classified as SA? They don’t haunt me but whenever SA is talked about they pop into mind.