I (F23) was SA by my host dad during my exchange student year in Louisiana. I was 15 at the time and he was around 65, I am pretty sure he used to drug me at night and who knows what, he had cameras in my room and my bathroom...

I didn't told anyone until I came back home and then I told my boyfriend about some messages he was testing me like " how is your ass doing now that you are in home?" "I hope your ass is still as fat"

When I reached 18, I told a coordinator I was still in contact with but she didn't do anything about it.

Anyways, a few years later he died and I felt anything but relief. I am mad, and sad that I will never get an apology. And the most important part for me is that I will never get to know what happened ? What did he do to me?

Have you ever gone through something like this? Have you been able to forgive your abuser ?