I (F) was dating this guys for 6 months. His mom was battling with cancer when we met and sadly, she passed away a month ago. We kept seeing each other throughout, and I was trying my best to be there for him. I called him often but gave him space and was always there when he needed me. I didn’t expect anything between us to continue because of what he was going through, I just wanted to be there for him.

One night I stayed over at his house. While we were having s*x he started doing anal. Without any warning. I told him to stop and was trying not to cry. When he did stop we continued and I felt fine even after. I stayed the rest of the night and we didn’t really talk about it. It wasn’t until I got home when I felt really sad about what happened. The thing is, we have talked about this in the past. He’s asked me multiple times to do anal and has even tried before. I always told him no and said that I am not interested in it. I also told him that when he asks me so much, it makes me more relentless to do it. In the past he’s always apologized and told me that he would ask me next time.

I called him a few days later when I felt really bad about it. We talked in person and he told me how sorry he was. I told him we had to end it. I didn’t trust him anymore and I felt so broken that he would do that. But he was also the only one who could make me feel better. He told me that he hasn’t been himself since his mom. I know he is going through a hard time, but I still don’t think that excuses it. I don’t know how to explain it but it felt like he loved me. I told him I loved him and he said that he has love for me but can’t love anyone right now because he is grieving. I haven’t talked to him in a month, but I still feel so broken over it. I feel like the whole relationship was a lie and he didn’t even really care about me at all. I don’t know what to do.