Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be enough, if my broken heart and shattered dreams will ever measure up,

Whether the warmth of your touch along with the light of your love, will reach around my walls to the tall tower above

My tattered pride and lack of trust , born from years of good intentions that fade to dust.

The storm waves crashing through the calm of the sea, beating bloody the boy that dies inside of me

From the rotted fruit seeded by the pain of my youth To the selfish desires of my Gods of truth.

The ones that gave me life and taught me to fear, And showed me the love that I would never feel.

From this, I learned that my life was a drift A masterless ship caught in the rift

From time to tide through the craching sea The unforgiving cold that was destined to me

I grew to a man but the boy still dies still holding the chain to the anchor deep inside.

For woe is he the deathless child, that still yet cries in the shadows where no one will find.

For this is his labor or so it was sowed, To be food for the beast, abandoned, and alone.

For countless moons passing above, casting its blue glow in the absents of love

To the sun that shines high, proud in its might, ignoring the suffering out of sound, out of sight.

A beat, a smile, a soft song in the night, it scares me to my core, and makes me take flight

A touch a look a small hand reaching out, to the loveless boy so shadowed in doubt.

How dare you come here! You need to get out! Don't you dare see me, you will never figure me out.

Im damaged! Im broken! I'm lost to the pain! Im ugly im stupid too much full of shame

You don't move you just sit there relaxed and unafraid Of the monster within so lost and filled with rage.

I feel you, I need you, you make the darkness less dim. Don't do this don't love me please don't find a way in

you will hate me you will leave me when you learn what he did I will hurt you I will push you I will make you bleed

Like I did that night,when my innocence was taken from me.

No! don't go! Please don't you leave! I didn't mean the words I said, I didn't mean to let you see.

I can love you I can see you I know I can learn. Im just a broken child, caught in your fire, and afraid of the burn.