So for context, I'm 31. I was a late virgin until age 27 since I was confused about my sexuality for a while and simply thought I was asexual until I finally accepted I was attracted to men.

Late summer 2021, I mustered up the courage to meet a hot straight guy on grindr. He checked all my boxes as to who I was interested in physically for my first cock (super hot body with abs, cut cock, big cock, handsome face, etc). He made it clear he lives with his girlfriend and simply wanted some good head.

It was amazing sucking his cock. Funny enough, I sucked him off in the backseat of his car in an empty McDonald's parking lot at night (he had tinted windows).

He got dominant and verbal. He was pushing my head down and telling me what to do.

It turned me on so fucking much. I ended up swallowing his load and he evaluated my oral skills after, per my request.

It gave me a sense of power and submission. It made me feel amazing being able to provide that pleasure to such a hot stud, that his girlfriend couldn't or wouldn't provide for him.

It also turned me on being dominated and essentially used like his fuck toy.

That feeling was euphoric for me. It was a new sensation that I now craved more.

So I then chatted with another hot guy on sniffies. He was local to me, about 4 miles away. He had a girlfriend but he lived alone and had his own apartment.

It was late night, probably around 4am. He wanted me to come give him a blowjob. He agreed to leave his door unlocked for me and instructed me to walk in his house, walk into his bedroom and get under his blanket and start sucking on his cock. I told him I wasn't ready and wouldn't be able to meet him until an hour or so later.

Okay, he said. He told me to still come but that he may fall asleep. He said if he's asleep, to wake him up with my mouth on his cock.

I ubered to his place and did as he instructed. When I arrived his cock was already rock hard under the cover.

"Hi baby," he tells me. He talks dirty to me and loving at the same time. I'm so horny at this point. Again, these are new sensations to me, so it's euphoric for me.

Suddenly... "I wanna fuck you baby," he tells me.

I tell him I've never been fucked before.

"Don't worry baby, I'll go slow," he said.

In that moment, my horniness took over my body. I never planned on getting fucked. I never thought I would. It never crossed my mind. I was happy with just sucking cock again.

I knew subconsciously that I was watching gay porn and being turned on by submitting to a man and being dominated.

I said okay and gave in.

Out of nowhere, he flips me over and pulls down my boxer briefs and tosses them on the floor

He lubes up his cock and enters my tight hole.

"It hurts, I tell him."

"Don't worry baby."

He applies more lube then gently slides his cock in me again. It was a bit painful but it went away in less than a minute and turned into the best sensation I've ever felt in my life. It felt better than cumming.

I didn't even know about the male g spot or prostate back then, but I can tell you he was hitting my spot. He fucked me doggy, then layed me on my side and fucked me some more. He became extremely dominant and started fucking me harder.

I moaned like crazy. I was calling him Daddy and asking for it harder. I heard him panting.

"I want your cum Daddy. Please cum inside me, I told him."

He bred me deep, then he cuddled me and kissed me some more. (he kissed me earlier while fucking me)

We chatted for a while.

Looking back, I think I was lucky now because most guys just wanna fuck you, then have you leave

He was a sweet man and very sexy. He had a toned body with really nice pecs. I enjoyed feeling all over his body and muscles.

That night basically turned me into a bottom unknowingly.

I ended up sucking a lot more cocks the next two years. Some were hot experiences, others not so much. I kept a log on my notes and have sucked at least 30 cocks I'd say. That's basically nothing in the gay community lol

I learned what I liked and what I didn't like.

Now that I'm more experienced, I'm a lot more picky though and selective with who I meet.

I have to be into a man physically & mentally even for a hookup. The "excitement" wore off for me.

Because of wanting to not lower my standards, I've had a dry spell all year. I've probably only met 3 guys total and got fucked twice. Both times were "meh" and like those times you only meet someone because the horniness takes over and you later regret it.

It's now the end of the year, and I've been horny as hell and really hungry for cock.

Today, I was walking around my neighborhood and getting my steps in.

I decided to walk past a local park, on a whim that I'd cruise and meet a hot guy or something.

It was crickets, but I did see a UPS driver delivering packages right next to me.

I immediately had thoughts about milking his cock in the back of his truck or anywhere, for that matter.

I shop online a lot and it never fails that I get hot UPS drivers.

This guy though was the hot driver I usually crush on that delivers to my house.

It was an even hotter white guy. He looked probably mid 30 to mid 40s. He was white, bald head it looked like (couldn't fully tell because he had a cap on), average height, looked in shape, and had a super hot thick beard that was brown mixed with salt and pepper coming in.

If I had to guess, I'd say he was 43-44. I imagined him with a fit body under his uniform, a thick cut cock, and musky and sweaty body from natural sweat while delivering packages all day.

I was on my phone cruising sniffies, but he was across the street from me delivering.

I wish I could just go up to him and ask if he wanted a blowjob. But I knew not all men would take it the right way and I could put my own safety at risk if he's a homophobe or something.

He got in his truck and drove off.

"The end of a hot fantasy, in my head," I thought to myself.

To my surprise he only drove down the block to another house.

I'm checking my phone seeing if any guys message me from sniffies or something else. I get a few messages, but nobody that entices me like he does.

I take it as a sign to just go walk up to him and ask.

I cross the street where he's at and he's in his truck. I end up chickening out and walk past him. I stop and look back and he's still there, presumably organizing boxes in the back of the truck, it seems.

The fact that he's still there all this time, I take it as a sign from the universe that I should approach him.

I walk in reverse to the opposite end of the sidewalk, this time passing his truck and now behind his truck.

He finally gets out and delivers another package.

I'm still behind discreetly watching and looking at my phone to not make it obvious in case he sees me.

Thankfully, he's just focused on his job.

He's walking back to his truck. Just as he's about to get in his truck, I finally approach him.

"Excuse me... I can drop off my UPS package at a CVS right?" I ask him.

"I'm not stopping at CVS right now. I already went there."

"It's okay, I was just wondering," I respond. "I'll just go tomorrow."

"We're closed tomorrow. You're going to have to go to Hawthorne on 120th st to get your package out on time," he tells me.

Meanwhile, in reality, there is no package. I had to make some excuse to approach him. I winged it last minute and it worked.

He had a cute smile and was like giving me the full "good employee," and "nice guy/nice boyfriend" vibe.

He looked even more hot up close. I was so turned on by him and his beard. Definitely hot middle aged/real life Daddy vibes.

I'm very attracted to white men, so of course I was mad horny, hard in my pants, and leaking lots of precum already.

Just as he's about to get in his truck...

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure, he responds."

"It's kind of private. It's not safe for work. I don't want you to be offended."

"Go ahead."

"Have you ever hooked up with anyone while doing a delivery?"

"Back then, when I was younger and lived on the East coast, I did. Now, it's not worth getting fired for."

"Oh okay, I get you. It's because I've seen like porn scenarios about that."

He laughs and I see that cute radiant smile again. At this point, I wish he could take me to the back of his truck. I wish I could kiss him and feel his hot thick beard on my smooth face and soft lips while I feel all over his body and start rubbing on his bulge. Then drop to my knees undress him and make his cock disappear in my mouth.

But reality hits. Back to our conversation.

"No man, it's not worth losing your check and your money over that. Maybe when I was younger."

He laughs again and we laugh in unison. He is so relaxed and friendly too, it seems. Super chill vibes from him.

Trying to subconsciously move the conversation forward... "I like your beard," I tell him.

"Oh, thanks man," he blushes it seems.

"It's really thick. It looks cool. It's hard for a lot of guys to get that texture."

"Aww, thank you man," he blushes again."

"Yeah, I guess I just watch a lot of porn."

He laughs again.

"It's all good," he says.

"You're really hot, I hope you don't mind me saying that."

"No man. Thank you. I'm flattered."

He finally gets in his truck. I think about uttering these 5 words directly to him: I wanna suck your cock," but I don't.

I felt like that may have been crossing the line.

The exchange was really hot though and went better than I planned.

I definitely got the "straight guy but will accept a nice blowjob from a bro" vibe from him.

Mind you, since I was just going on a walk to exercise, I had bed head since I woke up late, I hadn't shaved and threw on some jeans and a jacket. I usually wear contacts, but had on my glasses, so I feel like I looked a bit nerdy and not my best.

Now I'm thinking of walking there around the same time tomorrow during my daily walk and just saying hi again and feeling the vibes.

What do you all think? Any advice to initiate with him?

I'm thinking I'm going to look more presentable and maybe wear my tight shorts that has gotten some straight guys attention lol

Anyways, the dry spell continues, but I'm still thinking and throating cock and getting fucked, as we speak.

Something about submitting to a man's needs and bringing him pleasure and making him feel amazing with my holes turns me on so much.

I love submitting to a man and letting him treat me like his girl or good boy or slut or fuck you. It makes me feel powerful in a sense, knowing I can milk their cock and I'm great at it.

Today gave me back that feeling of fun and euphoria when I first started meeting guys back in 2021.

I guess in person interaction beats online interactions sometimes.

Let me know if any of you are interested in hearing anymore of my real life hook up experiences or confessions.

If you made it this far, I thank you, kindly.