It happend som time ago when i hooked up on tinder with older guy. He was looking bad. Very bad. Small. Fat. His hair were messy and he had something weird with facial hair. But i needed to feel humiliated badly at the time. Trauma was realy bad at the moment so i wrote to him if he wanna fuck me. He didnt believe me i was real or that i make fun of me. I had to send him a video that its realy me saying my tinder name and that i want to to be fucked by him.

We talked a little and meet the next day next to his home. He was surprised how young i was looking (i wore normal black top no bra, black skirt not very short, white kneesocks, black flat heels, pink panties, ponytail). And asked me for age, i told him 18. 🤷🏼‍♀️

We went to his flat, it was stinky from ciggaretes and not cleaned very well, but i have seen he was trying to clean a little for me. He gave me a beer, i drank a little, we made a smalltalk for few minutes and started to touching my breast thru m clothes. His hands were sweaty.. We started to kiss and i nearly puked. I stopped immiediately trying my best o not show my feelings. But he realised whats going on and slapped my face. He spat on my face and smeared it all over with his hand. I started crying uncontrolably and i lost all of my will. I behaved like a doll. He open my mouth by squashing my cheeks and spit inside. He told me to swallow and i did it with tears running from my eyes. He then unzipped his pants and ordered me to lick his balls. They were gross. I dont think he cleaned them for a few days at the very least. I started and soon after i didnt make it. It made me puke all over his floor. When he started to insult me loudly and literaly beating me i made a run for it dashing for my shoes and bolting from his flat. He tried to grab me when i opened the doors but luckily he grabed me by my ponytail and tho it hurt he was left with my hair band.

It was too much for me then.