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Part 39

I thought about just running away, but I took a deep breath and said “It’s just that… I noticed that Chrissie kept looking at her watch, like she was waiting for me to leave so you guys could spend time alone and do what you had planned before I crashed your date night, you know?” – my eyes started getting watery as I continued – “I got jealous because you guys would want to do… stuff…” I felt Chrissie’s embrace get slightly tighter around me. Somehow, I understood she knew what I felt, maybe even felt what I felt.

Gabriel looked at me and said “I understand beautiful. Before we say anything else, I want to thank you for being so strong and brave to say this, it must’ve taken a great deal of strength. You make me prouder each day.

Would it be OK with you if Chrissie talks about this?
It is OK if you say no, Chrissie won’t mind. Remember, this moment is about you, not about us.”

I could not understand what was so strong or brave about this. If anything, I was showing that I was not strong enough.
I simply mumbled, “I don’t mind if Chrissie talks…”

Chrissie stepped in and said “Red, are you sure? I don’t mind just sitting here and holding you.”
I lifted my head and said “No, it’s ok Chrissie, I want to know what you think and how you would handle it. We’re in this together, right?”

Chrissie took my hand and said “Red, you have no idea how strong you are being right now.
To be able to be this vulnerable with me, it is amazing. Thank you for trusting me at this moment.
It took me months to start opening up to Gabriel… So, thank you for trusting him and allowing me to be here, in this moment.”
I simply looked at her and nodded.

I guess in a way, it was strong because I knew next to nothing about her, and there I was, super exposed. Don’t get me wrong, I did not think I was being strong, I just wanted to know how she would handle it.
I knew I wanted to be part of this relationship, I just did not want to feel this way and maybe she had a magic bean somewhere that would help me feel better.

Chrissie looked at me and said “Red, would you mind telling me how and what you feel?”

I took a deep breath and said “I just feel jealous. I keep thinking about what you guys are going to do as soon as I leave.
At the same time, when you kept looking at your watch, I felt like you were anxious for me to leave, I felt like I am an obstacle that is keeping you from doing what you guys want to do, you know?”

Chrissie replied “Red, I am so sorry if I did anything that made you feel that way, I promise you it was not my intention. I need you to know that you are not, in any way, an obstacle in this relationship.
You are a very important part of it and our Sir has made it super clear to me, and now, meeting you, I understand why… and I agree with him.”

Gabriel stepped in and said “Red, I understand how you came to that conclusion, and I am sorry that it came to that.
I think the reason why you felt that way after Chrissie looked at her watch is simply because you have not gotten to know Chrissie. When you do, you will understand that it is not in her nature to be that way or think about anyone as an obstacle, it is just not who she is, but only time will show you that.

Secondly, another reason you reacted that way is because you don’t know the reason she is looking at the time, so your mind just created a reason; and of course, it created a reason that would be negative thoughts. Our minds tend to do that.

The reason why she keeps looking at the time is because she has a date tonight with one of her monogamous hopefuls and is supposed to leave soon so she has time to get ready and get pretty to go meet her…” – in air quotes – “Monogamous Duuuuuuuuude.”
Chrissie jumped in and laughingly protested “That’s not he talks!”
Gabriel quickly and dryly said “Yes, it is.”
We all laughed, and I felt a rush of relief… but wait a fucking minute! Was there a hint of jealousy in there? Dare I say “insecurity” when he said, “Monogamous Dude”?
Where’s my notebook when I need it, I wanted to talk more about this.

Gabriel continued “I take full responsibility for the misunderstanding, I should’ve told you what was happening or asked Chrissie to clarify it at some point, but this is 100% my failure and I apologize to both of you for that. I know better, but I did not act accordingly. I am sorry.”

Chrissie and I both looked at Gabriel as he apologized for something that, in my opinion, was not his fault. I had made the assumptions. I was the one that worked myself up to a jealous froth and Christina was the one that kept looking at the time… but he was taking responsibility for it??

It took me a second to come up with the courage, but I eventually looked at Gabriel and said, “I am sorry too, I should not have made that assumption.”
Gabriel then said, “You don’t have to apologize to me beautiful, I should’ve handled the situation better and I will do better in the future.
And you don’t need to apologize to Chrissie because you simply don’t know that she is not that type of person.

But to put an end to this, we’re all sorry and we’re all going to be better. Right?”
Chrissie and I looked at him and each other, then said “Right, Sir”.

Gabriel sat back, took a breath and said “And since that we're here: What did we learn from this moment?”
He looked at Chrissie and she said, “We learned that you don’t like my date?” and we started laughing.
Gabriel looked at Chrissie and said, “My job is to support you at everything you do, but I don’t have to be Monogamous Duuuuuuude's biggest fan… so go ahead Chrissie, what did you learn?”

I felt like we were in school, lucky for me, I was good in school.
Chrissie said “I learned that when I am with you two, I should be transparent about what I am doing and my actions should reflect my trust and care for you, both of you.”

Gabriel then said “That’s very well said, Chrissie… I loved how you worded it, thank you.
And you, Red, would you like to say anything?”

He felt like a professor in class, a sexy professor that will discipline me when I mess up, and pull my hair, yeah! Let’s give that a go… focus Red, focus!

I said “I think I learned that my jealousy came from not knowing. As you said, I didn’t know that Chrissie is not that type of person. I didn’t know why she was doing it, and I let my insecurity create assumptions for me.
I am sorry, Chrissie.”

Chrissie grabbed my hand and said “You don’t have to apologize, Red… I understand!”
Gabriel just looked at me wide eyed and said “Thank you, Red… That was perfect… if it was acceptable to give you a standing ovation right now, I would.”
We all chuckled, and he continued “I learned that I need to share as much information as I can with both of you to make sure we don’t have misunderstandings about each other; Included in that, I learned that I have to inform you, Red, that it is OK to ask questions. I know that you did not feel comfortable enough to ask Chrissie why she kept looking at her watch.
If I had told you that you could ask her, we could’ve all avoided this… again, I apologize to the both of you.”

We all smiled and looked at each other, like a happy family. I enjoyed that moment.

While I was just simmering in the moment, I saw Chrissie raising her hand, trying to get the waiter's attention and just asked “Chrissie, is everything alright?” and she said “yeah, everything is OK… Sir and you are out of tea, and I want to make sure you get a fresh cup before I go.”

I was flattered, I think.
Embarrassed, I don’t know.
I think I just felt cared for.
There was a part of me that wanted to compete with Chrissie and felt disappointed because she noticed the empty cup in front of Gabriel, and I didn’t… But I decided to let it go. I was feeling too good to let such a small detail bother me… but I think most of all, I realized that I liked Christina, and she was a person I would like to have in my life… maybe.

Chrissie took a minute to think and said to Gabriel “Sir, can I ask you something here, openly?”
Gabriel said “Of course, gorgeous, what’s on your mind?”
Chrissie took a deep breath and said “Would you mind If I cancel my date and stay here with you two? I am enjoying this a lot more than I will enjoy the date.”

Gabriel took a second and said “Chrissie, we are enjoying you as well and I think I speak for Red and myself when I say that we would love for you to stay… But you promised this gentleman that you would go out with him today and we keep our promises in this family. We do exactly what we say we are going to do, don’t we?”

Chrissie childishly pouted, looked down and said “I know, I know… We keep our promises… I know. But I had to try.”
Gabriel replied, “Of course you did, I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

Chrissie then said “Before I leave. Sir, do you mind if I stay in touch with Red?”
He looked at me and replied, “If Red is OK with that, I prefer that you do. Thank you for being so thoughtful, Chrissie.”
Chrissie then looked at me and said “Pleeease, can we stay in touch?”
I couldn’t help but get a huge smile on my face and said, “I would be happy to be in touch, here is my number.” I gave it to her, and she excitedly said “yay!”

Chrissie then put on her lip gloss, grabbed her stuff and started to leave. She looked at me and said, “Can I have a goodbye hug?”
Her big brown eyes looked so genuine and bright, with her arms extended in my direction, how could I say no? I got up and I hugged her… well, more like I received her hug.

Her hug felt warm, comfortable and there was a surge of connection that I could not understand or explain but I could certainly feel. She kissed my cheek, looked in my eyes and said “Red, it was great to finally meet you, and I can’t wait to spend more time with you.”
Feeling wonderfully vulnerable I said, “Me too.”

After the hug, she said “Don’t think I am not jealous leaving you two here… but whatever you do, take care of OUR Sir and enjoy yourself.”
I just smiled and said, “I will, Chrissie.”

Then, she turned to Gabriel and holy shit! Did I mention that she was a fellow boob girl?
Well, her butt was equally or more impressive!
I needed to get into the whole martial arts thing, NOW… cause not that I was into that sort of thing, but I could definitely appreciate it… wow.

When I was finally able to stop looking at her butt, I saw that she had pressed her forehead against Gabriel's and said “Sir, thank you for your guidance, thank you for allowing me to meet Red, thank you for finding her and bringing her to our lives and thank you for your love. I love you.”
Gabriel simply said “Good girl, I love you too. Please be careful and let me know when you are home safe.”

WOW! That was AWESOME! Holy shit!
How could this be wrong? I am sooo into this!

And then she looked at me, said “Red, look” and planted the most loving, sexiest, tender kiss on Gabriel.
My jaw just dropped, my mouth open and in disbelief thought “My kisses, you slut!”

When their kiss broke, she said to Gabriel “Good luck dealing with that, Sir.”

She sighed, composed herself and then she just walked away…

to be continued...