So I wanna vent a bit about something but idk where cus it’s nsfw so yah I’ll delete if need be Plz no negativity ik im not a great human also gf doesn’t care that I dance with other people

Anyway I went to a wedding tonight and I didn’t expect to dance or be there as late as I was whatever right I’ll go to the country bar another day
So I was up dancing with my sis and family and this guy who had been dancing a more teachable dance with like every chick even under age from what I gather he likes teaching the dance cus it’s fun and he wanted to dance it He came up to my sister and i asking my sister first well she said no her hubby would stomp him into the ground so I kinda went in for it I was pretty tipsy the drink I had was a alcohol I normally don’t drink so we get dancing and I got two left feet at that point cus the shoes were big and I wasn’t quite used to them and my feet just weren’t listening to me but he still danced with me he dipped me 2 times I’m quite surprised cus I’m a bbw not like 300lbs but between 200-300 so yah but anyways after I got tired out I took a small break to change shoes and catch my breath I wanted to dance again with him It idn’t end up happening

So ig it’s safe to say but y does dancing like hand in hand always turn me on and it’s erotic feeling I struggle a lot to get off on my own idky but like 2 times tonight leg shaking I don’t get it

I’m also frustrated cus ik that he goes to that bar I wanna go to and it’s a county line dancing bar and if he asks me to dance hopefully my feet doesn’t suck but also I have a gf she don’t dance but lately the relationship has been very shit on my end to the point I’m close to ending it if it wasn’t for her needing help with some stuff to be in a stable place to handle this split up I would probably have done it last week Basically this dude is bait and bait I don’t know if I want cus he’s a year younger and in the last few min before I left with fam I talked to him and was offered a cigar w33d and chew I don’t do any of this as I’m trying to get healthy and have healthy relationships Idk I just needed to get this off my brain so my tired jelly legged self can get up clean up and go to f-en bed