It took me (36M) 33 years to come to terms with my bisexuality and experience my first cock. I am writing this in the hope that the person who helped me the most sees this one day so that she knows how big of a difference she made in my life.

I met Isobel (fake name) in a massage parlour in Surry Hills, Sydney in October 2021. The first time I saw her she took my breath away. She had that classic Aussie girl next door vibe and 26 years old, with platinum blonde hair, milky white skin, DD fake boobs, and a smile to die for. She was the same height as me standing at around 5' 9" (176 cm) and had a gym fit physique with curves in all the right places. The closest person with a similar body to her would be an Aussie porn star called Scarlet Chase. The first time she gave me an erotic massage I felt like I was in heaven. She started off slowly with soft kisses all over my back and then rubbing her oiled body all over me. She then turned me around and rubbed her pussy on my cock until I exploded. I knew from that moment that I was hooked.

There was something different about Isobel which is very different to other sex workers in Sydney. Even though she looked like a runway model, she really took the time to listen to me and remember everything I told her. She was very empathetic and kind, and always treated me with respect. She always made me feel safe and calm whenever I visited her. So one day I felt safe enough to tell her my deepest, darkest fantasy.

I told her about my extreme religious upbringing and how I felt ashamed of secretly watching gay porn. She told me that there was absolutely nothing wrong with me and it was perfectly normal to want to be curious and want to experiment. At that time I was going through a phase of watching sissy hypno porn on hypnotube. I asked her if it would be okay if we watched it together and she was very encouraging. I showed her one of my favourite videos on hypnotube of Natasha's Bedroom where Natasha, the actress provides JOI and encourages the viewer to become gay and suck big cocks. We were lying on the massage bed and watching the video on my phone and I could tell how into it Isobel was as she was watching the video with a lot of attention. I reached down with my hand and felt her pussy and it was soaking wet. She was turned on!

Isobel told me that it was the first time she watched this genre of porn and it she really liked it. We finished the video and she started stroking my cock as she was lying next to me and talking dirty to me exactly like in the porn. She told me to say out loud, "I am gay". I said it and she said, "louder". I said it again, and she said, "say it with more conviction". I kept saying "I AM GAY" over and over again, getting louder each time and believing in it more as I said it each time. I asked her to call me a Faggot like in the video. She was reluctant at first to use this derogatory word but then she got really into it and started calling me a "Faggot" and her "Slut" which pushed me over the edge and I came all over her hand. She got up and cleaned my cock with a wet wipe and washed her hands and came back and lied down next to me so that we could cuddle. It felt like years of repressed emotions had been released from deep within me and I couldn't stop crying uncontrollably. Isobel held me tight and told me that I was a good little slut and she was very proud of me. I felt so grateful to her in that moment. She was my Angel.

From then on it became a routine. I visited her once a week and each time she would start off massaging my back and kissing my back all over, and then she would turn me over and lie down next to me. She would then gently stroke my cock and whisper sweet nothings into my ears. She always told me that I was a Faggot, and a Sissy Slut, and she was so proud of me that despite my cultural and religious conditioning, I wanted to be free and suck cock like a good girl. Each week she got me to say out loud "I am gay" a few times so that I didn't feel embarrassed or ashamed. From time to time I would show her my favourite sissy porn and she would copy and say the things the girls said in the videos back to me. She kept conditioning me for 3 months and I embraced my new identity as a "Faggot" and Isobel's "Sissy Slut". It got to a point where I stopped watching straight porn completely and the only porn I watched was bisexual MMF, gay, or sissy porn. As time went by I felt less and less ashamed and warmed up to the idea of trying a real cock for the first time. I told Isobel that I was ready to suck my first cock and she was over the moon with excitement. But my only condition was that she had to be there for my first time and she said yes straight away. So we started looking for a guy who would be my first cock to suck and take my anal virginity. We eventually found the perfect guy and it was the most magical and life changing experience of my life. But that is a story for another time. Please let me know if you want me to write about my first bisexual MMF threesome.

I wish I could say that I still see Isobel once a week, but unfortunately she quit the sex industry just 4 months after we met. I was absolutely devastated when she told me and I cried so much as the thought of losing her was unbearable. But I was very happy for her as she told me the reason she was retiring was to move city and settle down with her boyfriend in Brisbane.

Isobel, in the very rare chance that you are somehow reading this. I am so very grateful to you for helping me love myself the way I am. I miss you so much and you will always be my Angel. I hope you are happy and fulfilled wherever you are. You are one of the nicest, sweetest, most kindest human beings I have ever met in my life and I will always cherish our times together.