This is part two of a long double post! Link here to part one.

We enjoyed that post orgasm relaxation and came down before cleaning up and putting our clothes back on. It was really good sex, but pretty quickly reality hit us and we both felt really guilty about what just happened and about how much we enjoyed it. I noticed Hanna looked stressed and was staring into space a bit... I was feeling really bad about cheating on Abby, and I could tell she felt just as bad. I was trying to be calm and gentle and asked her if she was ok. She looked at me and appeared very concerned and said, "That was not alright... We shouldn't have done that." I told her that I was thinking the same thing. She looked like she wanted to cry and I was like shivering from stress I'm not gonna lie. I never cheated on Abby before or ever wanted to, this feeling was horrible.

We talked about it more and tried to figure out wtf to do about this. There was clearly some gray area. Abby is a very progressive and open minded person and sexual person, hence her proposing the original threesome in the first place. Realistically, this happening between Hanna and I was always a possibility. I kind of got the feeling Hanna didn't want to say anything and just never bring it up again and for us to forget it happened, but we already tried that with the threesome and look where we were.

I also didn't like the idea of us hiding it, and it being obviously weird between us. Abby would definitely notice that. And the idea of one of us one day telling Abby and while the other was still keeping the secret seemed like a terrible idea, too. It would just hurt everybody more. Abby and I from the beginning of our relationship were serious about honesty, and so I was adamant that Hanna and I needer to tell her about this as soon as possible, together. No matter what the outcome was, telling the truth and being totally honest about how this happened was the right thing to do, even though it would be really hard and emotional. I also said that if it got ugly telling Abby what we did, I would take the blame for it because I'm her boyfriend, and it is my responsibility to control myself. Hanna agreed to this but seemed really scared and ashamed of herself. I was too but I was trying to hold it together more especially because she was so shaken up.

Abby was at work and wouldn't get home until about 5:30. Which was a couple hours away. We decided to just sit tight at Hanna's apartment. It was pretty quiet at first but we lightened up a little and were starting to be hopeful that it would be ok, and felt confident we were going to do the right thing telling Abby. At 5 we drove separately to our apartment building, because I thought it wouldn't be a good idea for me to drive Hanna home if Abby got really mad at us and she needed a way to leave if she had to.

It was agonizing waiting for Abby to get home. Hanna was sitting silently in the living room and I paced around a little with nervous energy. When I heard Abby coming in the front door my heart was pounding so hard. She said hi as she entered the apartment and I just kinda said "Hey... Uhhm." She took off her coat and came inside and saw me looking stressed and then Hanna walked into the kitchen area from the living room (we have an open layout) and Abby was really surprised. She asked why was Hanna here. Hanna immediately lost it and just start crying after I told Abby that Hanna and I had to talk to her. It was pretty obvious what about and Abby just said, "oh..." But she seemed calm but worried.

So I started from the beginning. Abby knew I was going to Hanna's apartment that wasn't a secret. I said we did not plan for it at all but as we were talking we eventually found ourselves feeling more tension. Then Hanna just took over started talking. She was really anxious and was talking fast, saying how hard the past year has been for her and she has struggled so much with intimacy and with men, and that she felt so safe and comfortable the first time with me, and found herself wishing since then that she could just have me because she hated dating so much. She kept saying that she seriously didn't intend on what happened today and it just sort of happened. She said a lot of other stuff and it was clear to Abby and me that there was just a lot going on for Hanna. Eventually, Abby stopped her and said, "Ok. Slow down. What exactly happened." Then Hanna looked at me and we tried to discern who should say it, so I just did.

I looked at Abby and said that Hanna and I had sex. I told her about how we got to talking about sex and how we agreed the threesome was fun and if we were honest we would want to do it again, and we found ourselves wanting to right then, but we decided we shouldn't do that and just try kissing instead, and then one thing led to another. Basically everything that I explained earlier here. I didn't leave out any details of the conversation, but I wasn't specific about what we did together.

Abby was quiet and processing and Hanna started crying and saying she was so sorry and I said the same. Hanna was really starting to break down because I think all the stress and frustration and heartbreak and confusing desires were all hitting her at that moment. It was really painful to see. But Abby finally said, "oh my god no Hanna it's okay it's okay." And she walked over to her and gave her a hug and tried to calm her down.

I was shaking again from guilt and stress. I really didn't know what was going to happen. But finally Abby started talking more. She said she was a upset to hear this happened, but continued on to say that she didn't really know what to feel or think. She kept saying to Hanna, "honestly, it's ok. Im not mad at you."

Abby and Hanna are the most real best friends I can imagine. They share almost everything as far as I know. And Abby has a lot of empathy and patience for Hanna. Seeing Abby's reaction to Hanna was pretty cool, and I could feel that she was sincerely not mad at her. I could not tell if I was clear, however.

Things kind of calmed down and Hanna stopped crying and collected herself. Abby started talking to both of us more and we listened. She said that it's not that unbelievable Hanna and I would want to have sex again - she was there when we did it the first time and she knew we loved it. And she said she understood Hanna was having a lot of trouble with intimacy and she knows how hard it is for her to be physical with anybody, so it made sense she wanted me when she was feeling sexual frustration again. And she said to me she wished I would have said no, but that wouldn't necessarily resolve anything. I said to her that while dating her I had never before wanted to have sex with anybody else, but there was undeniable feelings I had for Hanna after the threesome and I repressed them. I explained they weren't like emotional or love feelings, just physical feelings. It didn't really mean anything, it was like fulfilling hunger. Hanna agreed with me after I said that. Abby said that wasn't surprising because Hanna is hot af (this made Hanna laugh and I think the joke cheered her up a little bit) and that she gave me "permission to have sex with her right in front of me."

I was really impressed how level headed Abby was about all of this. Before she got home, I was convincing myself she would be beyond pissed off and break up with me. And she had every right to do that if she wanted to. But fortunately that is not what happened.

We were all pretty much entirely cooled off now and the energy of the room was noticeably lighter. Ultimately Abby said something like, "you know what, amazingly I'm not mad at either of you. Like, it was cheating, but for you to both be honest like this is actually really cool. The fact that you both told me everything right away means I can really trust you." She said she believed us both that it was an accident and she understands why it happened. Hanna kept asking her if she was serious, and if she was really ok, but Abby kept saying she was. She did say she needed to think about it but she loved us and it was ok for now.

So apologies are made, we were forgiven, and Hanna went home. After Hanna closed the door when she left, Abby looked at me with an ironic angry face and jokingly shouted at me, "I can't believe you! Look what you did to that poor girl!"

I laughed but was a little uncomfortable, because I still felt like I was in the hot seat. I asked Abby if she was actually okay and she said, "yes oh my god stop asking me that."

I told her I couldn't believe her response and she said she was a little surprised too but didn't feel too much about it at all. She admitted that she was already comfortable with the fact Hanna and I had had sex before and having done it again didn't change that. I told her she was fucking amazing and she told me to "go take a fucking shower." lol.

Ok so I know I have written so much already. I can't keep writing this out yall! My wrists hurt haha. But I'm going to give a brief explanation of what happened from there on.

Abby and Hanna went to the Bridal shower Bachelorette party thing and I stayed with Hanna's cat. They drove together and talked a lot more about me, the "affair" Hanna and I had, etc. I don't know all of what they talked about, because Abby wouldn't tell me specifics. Hanna apparently apologized like 50 times lol. They did not tell any of their friends about the threesome or about what Hanna and I did.

I left Hanna's apartment the next day after I fed her cat in the afternoon. Abby came home but Hanna also came up to hangout for a bit. They told me about the weekend and said they had a great time. They seemed 100% back to normal.

Eventually they gave each other a knowing look snd laughedm2 and I asked what that meant. Then Abby said, "I've been thinking a lot about what you two did. The more I think about it the more I think it's kind of hot in a way. Hanna and I talked about this on the way home. I've decided you two can do it again." They both just watched my reaction and laughed. I asked what she meant, and she told me that while Hanna was single and dating, she and I could continue having sex. Hanna was clearly embarrassed, but seemed happy because she had a big smile on. I asked Abby if she was joking, because sometimes I can't tell. She said she was dead serious, but there were conditions.

The main condition was that it was only to help Hanna if she was feeling sexual frustration, and that only she could initiate it. The second condition was that we could not do it often and it was not to be abused. The third was that Abby didn't have to know, but it wasn't a secret from her. And the last condition was that Abby gets to have sex with somebody else someday because I owe it to her. In my opinion, that was all more than fair.

So yeah, somehow we ended up in a sort of polyamorous arrangement. To this day I don't know if Abby has claimed her pass, but I wouldn't be jealous or mad if she has or when she does. Hanna and I decided the code for "come over" was a cat emoji 🐱 because this all started during that cat sitting instruction. Hanna and I had sex four more times before she finally found a partner.

Abby and I are still together and happy. Hanna is still her best friend and now I confidently say she is one of my best friends, too. By the time Hanna found a boyfriend, we accepted that we were going to stop, even though we were having a lot of fun every once and a while that we got together. I think we got all of the pining and desire for each other out of our systems and now we are all totally normal and just closer than ever before.

Her boyfriend is really nice. I'm not jealous of him or anything, it's all cool haha. We have all hungout together and done double dates a few times. I do not think he knows I had sex with his girlfriend or that she had a threesome with Abby and me, though. Not sure if she will ever tell him lol.