Yes I was very loving & caring, always cuddly with my first 2-3 girls. But, as luck would have it, none of my initial partners were loyal and I got hurt quiet a lot.

Perhaps they were only with me cause I had bit more cash on free flow than other guys and friends who were around(now I'm more careful with that). They are the ones who changed me from this cute, loving & cuddly guy to the one who just now uses girls for physical needs.

Don't get me wrong I try to make sure that I satisfy the girl too but both of us know what we are doing. The girl knows that she's a slut and is being used and many just want that, cause they love it. I mostly try to keep it casual or a one time thing but there's this thing that sometimes happens.

After we finish a couple of the girls have requested to stay around for a bit longer and just cuddle and talk to me. Want to know about me. I always try to ignore their request or make some excuse. This directly takes me back to how things were with the first of those cheating girls, how I was and how I changed, perhaps I just don't want to fall again and get hurt.

A few days back my casual friend(with benifits) whom I see like twice a year asked me to stay after a good make out and oral session for a little longer. I was dressed up and ready to leave but she insisted and told me that she was feeling lonely at that moment. Maybe she didn't want to feel like a slut(or get used), I guess she wanted some affection.

I caved in to her request and puppy face eyes. I took of my shirt and climbed on to the bed with her. Caressed her into my arms and let her lean her head onto my chest. She smiled and said to me that she can hear my heart beat and she loves that(she was on the left side). I smiled and said "okay, cheesy haha".

I asked "what's up? Are you doing well" or "are you just fine in life" something like that. And she told me how she got ghosted by a guy after her 1st date with him and how she started to like him and all(all of that happend a month ago so she was almost over the thing but haven't talked about it with anyone).

I told to myself in my mind that "maybe this is the reason many girls also prefer getting in to casual relationships". There's just no fuss of commitment and all. I snapped out the thoughts of my mind and brought her even close to me and hugged her even tighter. I told her it was going to be okay and she will be feeling fine in no time.

At that moment when I looked at her she looked me straight into my eyes and idk what weird feeling I had in me, I started melting in her pretty eyes. I gave her a few kisses here and there on her cheeks and then gave her one long kiss on her forehead (she smelled really good btw). The last time I gave someone this kind of forehead kiss was when I was that cuddly guy.

She gave me sweet thank you and I smiled to her. We ate and drank a bit after that and went back to a bit more of talking. She fell asleep right in the position how we started cuddling first, in my arms and on my chest. Even I fell asleep with her after sometime and I left in the morning when I woke up. I received her text later in the day saying "we should do that more often" and I replied "can't wait", cause I literally can't.

• It's purely fictional. Just and idea/thought from my kinks, horniness and loneliness.