I’ve been bi and dreamt of being a sub my entire life but grew up in small town MT in a time guys got dragged behind trucks for being different. I finally accepted myself and came out to my closest a few years ago but still can’t bring myself to actually meet up with anyone and experience being the sissy I am at heart. I’m tired of my fake alpha bullshit mask after 44 years of wearing it, it’s cracked and more and more not doing its job anyway. I can’t get past the anxiety part to actually live my life the way I want. I could use at least some low pressure friends to talk to or a dominant Top, Mistress, or couple that talk to me long enough to get me to meet and make me their corner sittin clean up boy and let me not be the one not in control that everyone’s looking to while I’m with them. Ongoing preferable disease free a must I haven’t been with anyone at all in years I’m clean and ready to feed and breed if I can find the right masters.