I (26m) have really no visual preferences to most people beyond sex appeal and personality (ok thighs are nice)

However 7 years ago I had sex with a woman who was heavier than me and she rode me too hard causing my shift to fracture. This resulted in months of healing and still to this day I need to be careful in bed

I have attempted to fuck larger women since but now I only feel comfortable having sex with women under 200 lbs

I am a gym guy. Dead lifter. 250 lbs. I can toss most women around a bedroom. But once they pass this weight I get the thought in my head and I just can't anymore.

Now I have so many amazing friends whom I wish I could have sex with but I'm scared ill get injured because of the remaining damage

Am I the asshole?