Does anyone else feel like giving during sex is way more arousing than receiving? like when I fantasize sexually I don't get super turned on by the thought of someone doing things to me, it's way better to think about things like giving them oral or topping them. And I feel like I don't even need the other person to give like I'm not even super interested in it. I can take care of myself if I want to finish, but I just want to do things to them, whatever they want done. I am also really into (consensual) voyeurism, so maybe it ties into that? Like I'd much rather just see/hear their reactions to receiving pleasure instead of them reciprocating.