I've posted on this subreddit before (a couple times, in fact) about how I'm holding off on masturbating due to my current struggle with UTIs, and wanting to wait until I'm in the clear or I've managed to control the uti if it's embedded.

Well, now I'm scared to do so because of fears of a heart attack or heart failure.

It's been months since I had COVID, but I know how greatly it can wreck the heart, even for vaccinated people, and the bunch of other Long COVID stuff that makes me feel like my body is falling apart (even though, supposedly, it's not.) And I'm also overweight, plus the weird dizzy spell I had after a mere 1-hour flight I took and the tachycardia I supposedly have.

I know I should talk to my doctor about any heart issues; in fact, I had worn a Holter monitor for a couple days to record my heart activity. Problem is that the stupid electrodes wouldn't stick well, even with the surgical tape I used, so I don't know how the results will turn out or if my doctor could even use them.

Anyways, I do want to wait until I get the results back (and further testing and treatment of my UTI) but it's like even then, would I want to risk it? I've read stories of perfectly healthy women who exercise and everything suddenly having heart attacks, or women dying in the middle of the night after having sex. It sucks because I miss having orgasms so badly and the good night’s sleep and slightly improved mood they bring, and I had just gotten a cute new toy as well. I don't know how long I can just get off on fantasies alone with no climax to enjoy.

But I'm this close to risk keeling over for a quick nut, because after my talk with a family member, I know that I will die someday, and probably really soon, too. It's frustrating being sexually frustrating.