It's been a while since I posted, I guess. And I'm sure I drove people crazy over my talk and worry about erections. Just felt like I'd post an update. I just turned 44 this month. Previously, I suddenly was having erection issues. I had lost it during sex twice and then suddenly was having trouble getting up at all. On top of that, I started stressing about it and convincing myself I had cardiovascular disease. In 2018, I was busting my butt to eat healthier and get exercise. I dropped my cholesterol 70 points and got my blood pressure in a normal range and was sleeping with my CPAP regularly again. I did notice some improvement by the end of 2018 and even had two consecutive mornings of morning wood that rocked my world and made me tell my wife that my erection issues, or my worries, were over. Because that was a sign to me that I CAN get blood flow in there.

In 2019, I slacked off on the exercise and of course the erections went back to being difficult and extra gimpy again. I got to talk to my doctor again this month. I still had a small seed of worry about circulation issues and he gave me a talk that it was not a worry of his. Also I got a vasectomy this year and used that chance to talk to the urologist. So I had a urologist and my primary doctor both tell me I'm ok. So I'm finally putting those worries behind me and I can tell there were definitely some psychological issues that were complicating things.

But, man, not going to lie. I still kind of think, "What's wrong with me?" or "Did I not take care of myself enough?" as I see guys my age or older say they have no problems getting an erection or being rock hard. I'll have some morning wood on occasion here or there. I expect more as I get back into trying to exercise more again. The effort it takes to get up is frustrating, though. I miss when it was easy.

I told my primary doctor that I was hung up on the why. He told me that sometimes the why is just unknown. I know some people say to have testosterone checked and stuff. He hasn't bothered with that and seemed to not be in a rush to prescribe ED drugs. I guess I'm fine without the pills right now, though. Especially since my penis is what motivates me to exercise.