I'm 30 male with long term gf and 2 kids. Last week I went and got a vasectomy done and a circumcision for medical reasons. I'm pretty sure my stitches popped on my circ because I'm use to getting off almost daily through masturbation or sex. This lack of release is giving me some wild sex dreams and the slightest breeze makes me hard. So anyways, for as long as I can remember, I've felt that people who claimed to be monogamous were full of shit. I mean, how often do people cheat on one another? I've always felt that having multiple partners and being able to explore someone else, was a fairly normal urge. Turns out that some people are just wired differently, I.e. polyamory (me). So I'm poly, I figured it out awhile ago and lately I've been reading some material about it. After falling into a slump and my gf pressuring me to tell her why, I finally told her how I felt. Cue instant breakdown. I dont mean to hurt her, I honestly love her to the moon and back, and I hate seeing her like this. I wish I never told her and I'm fearful that I may end up losing our relationship, which I dont want at all. So now that the cats out of the bag, all she does is cry and look lost. I tried to tell her that poly is a multiplication of love, and that I'll never leave her for another woman. Between my mangled manhood and my poly reveal, its been a very exhausting week.