I (38F) had bit of a sexual re-awakening a year ago after my divorce where I went from being very vanilla with a low libido partner to getting to be my natural high libido self, trying out all the things from BDSM, CNC, various D/s dynamics, primal, polyamory and just good ol' wild casual sex with different people. It was a lot of fun and I learned a lot about myself, men, sex and attraction over that time, but about three months ago I met someone (33M, totally by surprise as well, we matched on Feeld and I thought it'd just be a fun spicy hookup), we clicked amazingly well from the first date and after a few weeks of talking about our future plans and desires, entered a relationship.

I'd consider myself fairly kinky at this point having done a lot of things, but the thing that gives me flutters and goosebumps right now is... Boob sucking. I'd always liked when guys would pinch, bite and play with my nipples but none of them actually just spent time sucking on them, but it seems with my boyfriend it's something that just kind of... Naturally happened during foreplay once and I enjoy it because it feels very intimate and wholesome. Like, I love that he just sucks on my boobs while I stroke his hair and kiss his forehead and say nice things to him, sometimes he comes over for a kiss or has his hand on my other boob or he rubs my g-spot...When he sucks on my boobs I actually get little vaginal contractions from it and having his fingers in me makes it all the more pleasurable. I love when he's been sucking on them for an extended period of time and then the next day my nipples are sensitive and throbbing kinda like how they feel before my period or back when I was on hormonal birth control but the sensation is even more intense. I'm obsessed with getting that feeling and want him to suck my boobs before or after sex every time we see each other. It feels amazing afterwards and I get the happiness of remembering it the next day from the pleasant sensitivity. I know it's probably just my imagination and excitement about the novelty of it all, but I feel like my boobs are slightly bigger these days too and I'm able to have really pleasurable, gentle orgasms from just playing with my nipples which never used to happen a few months ago.

It's not like I want my boyfriend to be some kind of baby to me, but I do get this overwhelming urge to just... Love him and take care of him and protect him when I've got him in my arms and he's making me feel like I'm high on something. Like I can't explain it and it's messing with my head, I feel like in those moments I love him so intensely that I don't know what to do with myself other than gently stop him and give him a slow and sloppy blowjob so that I can hear his moans and give him the same pleasure that he's giving me. We're both switches in the bedroom and quite comfortable flipping power dynamics as we like, and it's kind of fun to feel gently dominant over him like that when he's got a face full of my tits.

Do you guys do this with your partners or have it done to you? Is it just as enjoyable to you or am I being weird? Do you have specific things you like doing with your partner when it comes to nipple play? I feel like I was so naive and repressed for most of my life that simple things like this feel like big revelations all of a sudden... But it truly feels like I'm finally in tune with my sexual body, not embarrassed of my desires... It feels wonderful. I feel human again.